These 2 days I've gotten angry pretty easily... Don't know why. After i've thought abt it calmly i've realise 1 was a pretty stupid mistake and the other could have been debated out nicely....
Maybe it was because i took the talk from mrs how so seriously... JC isn't for socialising and honestly, what happens if you can't graduate from jc after these 2 years. Will i enter poly? And if that happens, would my poly friends laugh at me? I wanted to say to mrs how that those weren't true friends then. But i thought it wasn't the right time and place for jokes. She wasn't scolding us... She was speaking in a calm tone. I could tell she was really disappointed. B4 the CT i was being really childish about not studying for the subject because she constantly scolds me for questions + body language. Now that i think about it, i still dislike it abit but not to the extent of hating her. Shes really good... sadly, i only noticed that after the CTs.
Miss seah is the best as usual. Even the smallest things she say impact me like hell. I really want to score well for her and mdm ong, its like my main motivation now in jc. I can't think of anything else that would make me wanna study.
I went for the peaks profiling and luckily after the playing, my angry mood dissipated and i became okay again. However, during that short span, i drove many people away with my cold-hearted behavior.
Aiya i don't know la srsly.
I feel like as long as friends don't wait for me they aren't my true friends. But i'm thinking too much over this.
Maybe i'm being too self-centered.
Maybe i just think too much like my friend said.
Right now my top 2 priorities are, 1. Score well and 2. Interact flawlessly.
Kinda stupid second choice huh.
Mrs how said that JC wasn't the hell of a place for socialising. And it isn't.
Maybe i'm obssessed with somethig small again.
Haiz shuo lai shuo qu, its all about me.
Maybe after a while i'll blog again. And hopefully the next time, it will be more about others and less about myself.
A phrase to express how the past few days have been: just like my peaks profile >_>
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