Sometimes I look at back at my common test period and I wonder, what went wrong? I've lost trust in myself, grades gone haywire, people start to give me advice that dosen't even deal with the shit I'm in. Basically everything fucked. I'm always willing to start the day off with the right attitude and an optimistic outlook. But sometimes the way life treats me is really like shit. Fuck man, if anyone of you people reading this is thinking,"Well there are others' out there worse than you". Well then FUCK YOU. There isn't shit worse than this okay. Beaten down so badly I could die but too afraid to die and having a fucked up sense of responsibility to do what I'm supposed to.
My problem isn't temporary, its a fucking constant.
I don't know if you have to deal with this but its really tiring.
I'm just really really really tired.
I've nowhere to go and I can't stop, I've got no direction to follow.
Feel like I'm going to explode.