Thursday 26 January 2012

26th january 2012

Chem test first thing 2mr. "I hate failing, but what I can't stand is not even trying." - michael jordan

Monday 23 January 2012

23rd january 2012

CNY  is about family togetherness and being happy. Not about your self-pride you disgusting piece of shit.

Friday 20 January 2012

21st january 2012

Guess I'm not going back to Kuantan for Chinese New Year again. ): Really miss my cousins and my dad's side of relatives.

20th january 2012

Time heals lots of things... so give it time.

Sunday 15 January 2012

Saturday 14 January 2012

15th january 2012

Life is about seeing yourself grow as a person and being the best that you can be. But along the way, you will meet people who gain a shitload of respect from you. Saying that, someone just gained ALOT of my respect today. And honestly, it makes me happy to know that person. Its people like this that make you wanna live to get to know other people who can gain your respect. Saying that, GREAT DAY!

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Friday 13 January 2012

13th january 2011

YO PPL! ITS FRIDAY WOHOOOOO END OF J2 FIRST WEEK. But wasn't really excited cos it was gonna be a pretty long day. Didn't know it was friday the 13th LOL. Got scolded the whole day by a bunch of teachers but didn't really feel scolded at all LOL. Dunno whats wrong with me todae, normally i will affected until damn bad one. After school had PE. Did pull-ups and ran 2.4km!! All the noobs become slow liao... including me haha. Mr kwok actually quite cool lah. But I still prefer mrs loh, she really cool PE teacher haha. After that consulted miss seah with noah and liang hui. What she said made alot of sense. ._. In maths, its not just do do do. You must really take time off to understand. Memorising of formulas are only really needed at the end. You must have a great foundation so that when the qns change hor, you can still see through it. Great advice from miss seah ^_^ *awesome maths teacher haha* After that go for dragon making... normal stuff. (chinese new yr de) Then went home with lucas theyall. At the bus stop got this one guy ask to borrow $10 from the guys and me. I not sure whether i wanted to give cause i knew i wasn't gonna get the money back. Saw the guys nvr give and i remember last time when some auntie cheated my money so i nvr give. But aiya... he like so dead i felt damn guilty. Couldn't stop thinking about that guy. What if he had really bad financial problems or smth? But on the other hand, what if he just wanted to cheat money like last time the auntie? Walao. Hate these kind of mixed feeling... damn fucked up. So ended up whole bus trip emo and thinking about that guy. Hes a malay adult(around 40s i think). Hope he gets back on his feet. And if he really is just a pianzi(scammer) then i nth to say lor. But i still wish all the best to this guy... wherever hes going. Even if i don't know a shit abt him. Haiz... wish i can see through ppl so i can know what is really going on. Then i can help then or dun help them. Like when i small i don't like going overseas. Because i always see beggars. Damn kelian. These are the reasons i can't sleep at night last time. I grow out of it alrdy lah. But it still pains me like shit. But srsly lah. Beggars can go get a job right. Why induce guilt to us sia. Somemore work can get you more money. I must have off-tracked anyway lols. After that! went to limbang to eat alone and emokid94 by myself. BUT SAW JACELYN AND EKKO! LOL WTF SO QIAO. Actually i saw jacelyn alot time liao so not that surprised. Lol we fated to meet. So had a long talk with them while eating and even after eating. Damn long lah. Like until 8:33. Still can remember haha. Nice talk lah. They made me forget about the poor malay guy... Looks like they aren't better off than me either. JC life and poly life have also made them very tired hahaz. Best of luck you 2!! You guys made my day btr HAHA! Using comp now and 2mr going for owens OGL thingy... maybe gonna do hw ltr...

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Wednesday 11 January 2012

11th january 2011

Sometimes things just get to you. No matter how small they are. So what?

Tuesday 3 January 2012

3rd January 2011.

Basketball Training.

Got there and got ready to play. Finished warm-up drills and started the 5 on 5. First play, Gerald did the jump ball with Issac, Issac got it and the game started. I started off with a few backdoor cuts, no ball. Ran back on defense couldn't defend shit. Fucking outside guards keep scoring and I cannot do anything. Kenneth got screen and I fucking never go up and switch fuck. Ends up with a made 3 pointer. Changed my gameplay abit, made more screens to get my legs moving. People keep stop dribbling before I can even get a chance to help them screen. Even worse, I went to get e ball but cause my own teammate to lose it instead fuck. Tried to rebound but kept flying off the damn backboard. When i got it, fucking pass it to enemy fuck. Couldn't do one shit right. Next match, ended on opposite team. could see it was really my fucking problem. Score was 6-nil then changed to 16-2 WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING? I didn't run back on defense, didn't keep to wei sheng when on defense, stayed at same spot on offense. Even when I set up a pick, I couldn't fucking roll. Legs were too fucking lazy. Got the ball on the fast break but kanna chasedown block by wei sheng off the layup. I didn't want to fucking pass over cause I know my pass damn cui. Before I throw a fucking off pass to mark DAMN IT. Should have slowed down and posted up. Next play was so frustrated so guess did a hard foul on wei sheng. I wouldn't normally do this but I was playing too fucking lousy to care alrdy. Damn it. Thought during training that it was my teammates fault for not fucking trusting me with the ball but realised it was my fault. I am too weak, too inexperienced, no game, skills zero, legs pathetic, heart gone. Player? Waste. How can I live with myself like this? Get stronger. The inches I need to get stronger are everywhere, I need to tear myself and other people to shreds for every inch if I really want to play well. If I don't get that inch, someone else is gonna get it and I'm gonna regret it. What use is a dream if you don't pursue it? Fucking waste your body if you wanna live with yourself. If you don't, just quit, you're a shell of me. I'm not like this. I'm one who kills myself to get better and play to my best. Go to hell.

HOW CAN YOU LIVE WITH YOURSELF LIKE THIS? YOU'RE WEAK.

Sunday 1 January 2012

1 January 2012

OMG ITS 2012!! FINALLY CAN WRITE THAT NO. ON MY HW MUHAHA...! Wishing all you guys a happy beginning to the year 2012 and that you have emerged a stronger person from the year 2011. (:   
              
First day of CHALET! 

 0.9. Bought gifts for you guys but never any for wei xuan and li jie. Felt damn EFFING bad but then... aiya fuck it lah, can't even find the spare gifts I originally wanted to give them at first... DAMN IT.

1. Training got cancelled, was kinna frustrated at first, but thought about being able to not go alone to pasir ris made me kinna happy... So it was kinda mixed feeling i guess.                                                                       

2. Took 302 to lot 1 and saw madupal and sam walking to lot 1. Made me laugh... don't know why though haha.

3. Met with the guys... going well so far, could talk and feel like myself moving all e way to the chalet. Felt bad when i see sammy sian with the cover... SORRY! I will make it up to you... VERY WASTE OF $20 I KNOW...!  So we were there and then shiman was still at CCK. Maybe have some ppl feel sian but I honestly thought it wasn't a dull period. We had time to buy the stuff for chalet and the animals got to play bowling. I helped contribute with my water knowledge ABIT haha...

4. So we went into the chalet and unpacked our stuff yay! Wash leg and walk out without dry. Dunno who scold me but FUCK! First mistake liao AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Gave out the gifts with guilt... haiz >_>. Maybe shouldn't have bought so much, or at least tried to buy some sg gifts.

5. Animals came back then we went to rent bikes...!! Yay! very long nvr ride bike liao. Somemore through the night... awesome...! JP and QH had to tank for the ppl who nvr bring enuf money... maybe i shuld have help tank but decided not to. At least not then anyway. Very noble of them although. Hope you 2 have a good 2012.

6. BBQ started yay!! Animals went to bike first and we started to bbq. Hanlei started e BBQ as usual and lazy sam go upstairs sleep haha. Remember keep disturbing daniel when he helped out with e charcoal. I keep saying "Daniel siah..." Dunno why but very fun LOL. After that food was ready!! Sam come down liao b4 went to call her wakeup... and I was food tester...! Ate e first chicken wing muhahaha. It was cooked!! (: Nxt few hrs a blur. Mostly smoke and animals came back and eat. ( Oh ya and fan alot for hanlei.)

6.5. Ppl played bridge which i still halfway learning cos we watching wipeout haha! Damn funny cos of the fat girl and very suspenseful. Like an NBA game 7 4th quarter. Forest won!! Expected. It was a copy of ninja warrior but still good though! Good job USA! (: CB like watching world cup sia. We were THAT NOISY. *BUT THIS IS WHAT I LOVE. THIS IS WHAT CHALET SHOULD BE ABOUT!! US SHOUTING AND SMACKING HANDS IN ANTICIPATION!* ^_^

7. AT NIGHT...! Okay here got alot of time play werewolf but i forgot most of it anyway. Me and chin narrator again i think? And we played!! Chin makes a good narrator. Hes gay but hes really a good guy.

8. Went to CYCLE! I was kept in e middle in order to not lose me. A*holes last time i lost in east coast only cos i nvr wear specs k. Now i got white and btr specs. But i don't mind u calling me easily lost cos its nt offensive haha. Cycling that time very LOL weixuan lead to temple in order to pray for safety. Sean and others say christian so cannot go in. Went in to see e temple. Really peaceful and stuff, heard the barks of 2 big doggies but nvr see. Ltr went back outside to wait with sean and some ppl else. Waited by the pond with the fish dunno wth its called...(Longan?) Then some1 ask me abt my christian again.
 (ARGH. Hate it when this happens. Makes me feel fickle-minded. Which i am lah zzz. I really hate to talk about this but i don't know how to avoid this topic. Maybe shouldn't have bought that chain from Jap just cos it looks nice and becos one rush decision to be christian b4 jap holidays haiz. Aiya just damn sian ppl keep ask me this religion stuff lah. Maybe its only cos i feel bad about it.)

9. Went to ride long long!! Forgot about the above yay! Fucking uphill make me pant. We cross road (traffic light) that time got 3 police car, they say must dismount if not will kanna punishment or smth LOL. so just do lor. Nxt traffic light, AIYA HECK CARE LAR LOL. Only daniel that funny guy dismount. Ltr part pass changi hospital and JP say cannot look inside. Cos of respect and ghosts...? I think. I didn't look...! Cos i keep focus on QH shirt behind lols. Cycled back and then got downhill liao wohoooo!! Got this one part damn fast until almost cannot control... wah damn fun. Feel bad for the 3 zhabors who nvr come haha... Then went to this one part and did roadcall. JP asked us to do roadcall. (Will relate back to this part later.) After that just cycled back. Boring but peaceful, gave me time to think about stuff. Dunno why I hate to think sometimes but like to think at peaceful periods. I was last in e end haha. Nvr get lost hor. Went back to chalet and mistook some indian guy for malcolm. LITERALLY. It was at chalet the check in place there lol. Lucky nvr chat with him.

10. By then we were outside chalet liaos. Bryan say cannot go inside chalet if not will stink lols. So he very angry when QH went inside LOL. Okay after that took turns go E-hub bathe...! There the shower nice like last year... except got upgrades...! Nicer now haha.

SECOND DAY OF CHALET

11. I don't care the 12am effect dosen't count unless its for countdown.

12. ATE at kopitiam...! When 2 woman out the 3 woke up i guess... With all e guys wide awake. Ate at the kopitiam with peng who was pangsehed i think? LOL and other guys too. Went to buy butter kaya bread set. Went to buy this red bean thing with coconut milk cos weisheng say must eat more to buff. But fuck man very hard finish cos alot of damn food sia. Lucky nvr waste much food in e end.

13. Dunno what happen ltr but we went pool!! THIS IS ONE OF MY FAVORITE MEMORY LOLOL. Cos by then my pool then more zai liao but lost to chin and js first match hahaz... expected though. Won e rest with YZ! Good partner who nvr complain unlike llama haha. So i pity malcolm HAHA. Really funny when llama keep miss the pool ball. I REALLY EFFING ROFL. (Yes it was that funny.) Won with sam yay!! Pool is really when you score and stuff like that. But that part is still when your teamate gets to enjoy the victory. Could see YZ like keep blame himself... walao feel very bad sia. Kinda like BBALL! Lebron always top scorer but no NBA title. Sucks lor. ): (But aiya i am the kind of guy who rather ownself score and get all the glory. Maybe cos i play bball nvr get glory much so now i wanna be selfish and stuff? Aiya dunno lah, but they say pride is good for sports so yeah.) see sam score 2 ball in a role like WAH! Was my teaching the reason? ^_^ hope so haha. Btr not be qh teaching that help you hor. If not his 2 min btr than my whole 15 mins tutor lol. But when you see your teamate score likeashuang. Dosen't matter who he/she is. Unless the person i really dun like lor.

14. After that when back chalet slack and stuff. Then made the worst decision of my chalet... TO GO CAP BALL. Went there with no fcking plan and made e guys walk all the way with no direction... keep talking but guys nvr listen leh haiz. Tot its kevin fault at first cos he play dumb and cannot hear me. But aiya maybe its like sam say. I cannot attract attention, or dun have that leadership flare like peng peng have like when he do the roadcall. Lead them to the "playground" lol... Walk there keep thinking about my leadership fail. Worse of all, ppl follow keep KPKB argh. Make me feel likeashit. Aiya my fault for having no ahead plan i guess. But got there liao YZ help give plan. (SO RELIEVED) LOVE U YZ. dunno how but suddenly last to reach top of platform become iceman. Kevin of cos. Haha fun part FINALLY BEGINS! (: Played until nat theyall come. Wah then bad part come again. Not becos of them though. Wanted to organise Cap ball but nobody listen agn. HAIZ *SADFACE* JP help by organising. WTF he makes it look so EASY!!! WALAO WHY I CANNOT BE LIKEDAT? But fun game and team with hanlei cass peng and sean. Adopted my bball strategy and used intercept bball skills to play hehe. But still lose until 2-0-0 so no point haiz. ): SORRY JP MY BEHIND THE BACK PASS DAMN FAIL ._.

15. Went back after this game to wash up and eat!! We ate popeyes, and subway. QH lost his HP i think. Wahlao feel damn bad for him. Wanted to collect money for pool but then cannot lah from him cos he now so ke lian. If I him i will fucking likeasian now. Shuld help make him laugh to lose e sianess. Fcking lousy emotion lah honestly.

16. COUNTDOWN! By then i think QH recover le, I played mahjong i think. Keep winning cos of luck and we play 1 tai. Lum keep scolding vulgar lol told him vulgar will scare tiles away dun listen. HAIZ. Second turn went to take coke and make guys wait for me. SORRY! Will not do this again!! Won again. Then JP came and play... I think lum won this round? Or issit QH? Forgot. ltr kept tiles with LJ and talked with him for awhile. Thanks for enlightening me on mahjong knowledge haha. Told me alot of stuff but honestly what he say, i absorbed about 5%. But still nice to listen to him talk haha. Glad he come he don't feel emo.

17. 5,4,3,2,1, ITS 2012 WTFFFFFFFFF SRSLY? WTF ITS 2012? ITS REALLY EFFING 2012. Change channel LOLOL. Watched the Channel U comedy with the grandfather daughter and grandson. Funny sia. The part where the grandad and grandson both saw the girls they like and the music change. Likea damn funny. Good show lah!! But dunno why don't have chance watch finish. Felt tired and went to rest. They then go bowling and I took care of chalet. Effing malcolm scare me say chalet maybe got ghost then first min i got hard time sleeping ccb. But ltr guys come back and i need open door i think. But i don't remember leh. OMG ITS A GHOST... woooooooo. Okay nvm lame. So they came back and i nvr woke up again until 8:30am!! WO! long sleep. Song bo. Best part is QH IS ASLEEP NO FUCKING NOISE. HOSEHBO. Wake up and dunno who say my hair in a mess. FUCK YOU spoil my day u ass. Okay nvm actually i not that bothered about the hair. Just wanna brush teeth and wash face but in e end only managed to do the first. So packed up and got ready to go back home!!!!!

18. Went to eat at same place and i ate chicken rice again... b4 i nvr mention cos i forget liao paiseh. Ate alote more chicken and nat return my money YESH. QH ltr return mine but i feel damn bad cos is i keep disturb him one and he lost his phone haiz. So we boarded the MRT with the walk back and slacked on it!! JP alighted to go for Family BBQ and me at queensway to order jerseys. fucking store nvr open but i bought 2 t-shirts ^_^.

-WISH EVERY1 A HAPPY NEW YEAR AND THAT EACH EXPERIENCE, NO MATTER HOW BIG OR SMALL BE A STEPPING STONE FOR YOU. BE IT A COMMENT, A MOVE OF A MUSCLE, A THOUGHT IN THE MIND, A LOOK IN THE EYE, A SMELL, A SICKNESS, EVEN A FEELING. CAPITALIZE AND TRY YOUR BEST. okay actually i saying this cos i want myself to achieve all these things. I cannot give any general material becos all will generally be for me. But What i wanna say can be summarise by kobe haha. So heres his quote.

Everything negative- pressure, challenges- is all an opportunity for me to rise- Kobe Bryant

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