Giving.

To give and do things for others is such a beautiful feeling.
It makes you feel fuzzy inside awwww haha.

Making things for others, buying and words in cards especially.
Retained in my spiritual world, you shall be.
May we remember each day and pick ourselves up in even the most disastrous of situations.
That's why my purpose in life I feel may be to simply to love.
Not romantic love, but all aspects of life, to let love overflow into all our lives. (:

This guy.

An inspiration

I heard someone say that what you do proves what you believe. I Believe there are 3 things I do through this site and affiliated sites I was put on this planet to do 1) Provide for young aspiring players what I didn’t have as a young aspiring player: some direction and guidance as to how you can get better; 2) Show the world that you don’t need bevy of resources to become great at this game or any other game. You only need 2 things: 1 — To know what work is required of you; 2 — Desire & commitment to doing the work; 3) To inspire and be inspired. When I was young I wrote down this list of things that inspired me: some Vince Carter dunk, a game when Micheal Jordan scored 50pts in some game, a line DMX said in a song, etc. I always look for things that inspire me — people, places, music, ideas — and I envison, one day, there will be legions of very successful, accomplished poeple, in any field of life, that will say,

‘when I was coming up, this dude named DreAllDay, Dre Baldwin, inspired me, moved me, to go do sumthin. And I did something, and I appreciate that man.’  

 

Personal.

I'll be happy to take anything personal out of the way.
Takes a lot of burden off your shoulders and makes you a lot happier too.

I have... a lot of things, against a lot of people.
Trust me, that's why I'm always not talking.

But having better learnt how to take care of emotions, detach yourself from personal grudges, brings a certain extent of liberation you know?
It gives you that peace of mind you need to sleep at night too.
Something I can't seem to catch no matter how hard I pursue it.

“I used to think the worst thing in life was to end up all alone. It’s not. The worst thing in life is to end up with people who make you feel all alone.”

-Robin Williams

Last one.

One last paper.
And finally the pain will be gone.
At least,
most of it.

New perspective.

Moses taught me something, okay, reinforced something in me today. Its a really strong method to use. Many of us tend to set goals but fail to do the planning and the carrying out, that's why so many of us are unsure of our future and leave things in the hands of fate.
I'm not saying that living in the moment isn't good but, planning for the future can bring you really big benefits. When I really thought about it, it really made a lot of sense.

When you set a goal, you have to make it specific, create a clear path and don't lose your sense of direction.
Make sure its specific as hell and don't spare any details.
Know about what you're doing and be sure of your path.
That way, we can gain a large amount of confidence.
This is just a small part. I'm sorry if the significance isn't delivered in my post.

My thoughts on this? Always pursue your dreams.
Because,
as one path closes,
another one opens up.
It the theory of the universe.

There is always a way.

Beliefs.

I don't encourage arguing about beliefs to others. Of course it increases self-esteem and strengthens your faith, but all we are really acting out of is ego.
We just want to be right and it makes us feel more confident.
The point of an argument is to come to a conclusion which benefits both parties, not to just prove your point and make yourself feel good.

Compassion.

It's so beautiful when you do something nice to someone despite them treating you badly before.

You have just tilted the scale in universe.

These 2 words piss me off greatly.
"Who going?".

Reading.

Tuesdays with Morrie always makes me feel better. (:

I want to kill you so bad you know.
I really do.

Tired.

What's the point in reading all this shit if nothing has changed.

Let. Me. Off...

God I've always wondered, do I really deserve all this good treatment you're giving me? I've done so much bad stuff in my life. I can't undo all those things I've done. I just want to make it up those these people, but deep down I already know. Doing all of these will never ever be enough.

Absolve me.

Ever thought about losing it?
When your money is all gone and you lose your whip
You might lose your grip
When the landlord tell you that you're due for rent
And the grass so green on the other side
Make a nigga wanna run straight through the fence
Open up the fridge about 20 times
But still can't find no food in it
That's foolishness
And sometimes I wonder
All we care so much about the way we look
And the way we talk, and the way we act
And the clothes we bought, how much that cost?
Does it even really matter?
Cuz if life is an uphill battle,
We all try to climb on the same old ladder
In the same boat with the same old paddle
Why so shallow, I'm just asking
What's the pattern to the madness?
Everybody in a #1 draft pick
Most of us aint Hollywood actors
But if it's all for one, and one for all
Then maybe one day we all can ball
Do it one time for the underdogs
Sincerely yours, from one of y'all.

Sometimes I wish that even when people treat me badly I'll still be okay with it and still treat them nicely. If course that goes without saying that the people that treat me well I will treat them better lar.

I don't believe I'm that sensitive lor. I'm normally having a really bad day so please forgive me for being so cold. I'm don't want to scold you so please just give me some time.

Reflection in the midst of all the work.

When will my mind stop playing tricks on me?
Things that haven't happened I'm expecting to spillover.
Things that have already happened are being imagined as worse scenarios in my mind.
You know, how tiring it is to be aware that such happenings are gone and pointless but to recall time again and again? I have debated time and time again with these issues that never seem to be settled. It's not a matter of making peace with your demons because they don't seem to want to stop tormenting me.

I'm really tired of you playing games with me. When will you stop?
When is it going to finish?
Its been like this since the start of the year and life has never been easier on me. Nights filled with insomnia and thoughts, wake up calls with a horrible start to a day by recalling what I was thinking the night before.
It is so fatigue-inducing that I just longed to have a day without thoughts, without memory, without contemplating, without expecting, without predictions.

I just pray for my mind to stop playing tricks on me. Life has been so tiring lately that I could no longer treat people as well as I normally do.
Been giving cold shoulders and avoiding contact because I'm so guility of accusing them in my thoughts.

Life will get better soon, I know it.
Afterall, isn't life about dancing in the rain, instead of waiting for the storm to pass?