True love? - Its when both people make each other better. Easy to understand, so fucking difficult to find.

Sometimes we have unrealistic expectations or the person we think we are in love with. I don't think thats right, geniune love is being aware of the other's flaws and accepting them for what they are.
Awareness comes first and if you are just relying on a perfect image on your crush, thats just not right.

Value of life.

When I see no point in my own life anymore, I give. I give to make meaning out of my life, to see its value. How do you get out of your dark times?

Sick and tired of all this fucking shit.

The Mayonnaise Jar and Coffee

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar… and the coffee…

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.

So the professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with an unanimous “yes.”

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

“Now,” said the professor, as the laughter subsided, ” I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things – your God, family, your children, your health, your friends, and your favorite passions – things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house, and your car. The sand is everything else – the small stuff.”

“If you put the sand into the jar first,” he continued, “there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first, the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.”

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.

The professor smiled. “I’m glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there’s always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.”

Can't believe this. I've still a long way to go. And I to think that I used to believe that I was mature enough. Just a simple talk with lianghui, bella and kangxun until 10+ at jcube.

Life's good isn't it? (: Amen.

Kind soul came back to give me my POSB card today. Its something small, but things like these make me feel so happy, it feels good to be able to see that people are inherently good.

Dear lord, I pray for your guidance. To direct me in the right path when I'm unsure.

A simple gift.

Everytime I hear mr kwok talk, it feels as if all my problems have become really small. Perhaps they are. Thanks teacher. I'll always remember these lessons. Thanks for being a life mentor. (:

DAMNIT! How can you sleep without getting better? How can you be satisfied with the now? Don't you want to get better? Don't you want to achieve more? Don't YOU want to become better at life?

http://www.dragosroua.com/100-ways-to-live-a-better-life/

Just 100 ways to better your life (:
Can't really focus on it now though, I'm have to be completely focused on my studies.

A random thought: Why is there constantly so much irrelevant shit going on in my mind? Imagine how much more productive I would be without them. Imagine how YOU would be. I think that we all have memories that we choose to discard and not think of them anymore. But sometimes they just come back even though you feel that you have already settled it.
Don't waste your energy by settling it again in your head, just dismiss it. You'll be happier that way and much more energetic. (:

Been really tired these few days. Not myself. Can't seem to work out a proper conversation. Probably because I'm not feeling myself. Or probably thats the me that I have evolved to.

Sometimes I really wonder. Am I supposed to be like this? Am I supposed to be 'nice'? As some people call me. I used to be a really big douche in the past but at least I felt myself. Can't even go back to that personality state without feeling uncomfortable. Perhaps its the people I've been around, perhaps its just me.

Can't seem to be fun anymore. I can't even geniunely make myself laugh. So pessimistic huh haha! Fuck...

Gotta try again to be cheerful tml. I don't think I can find myself during this period. Gotta focus on studies and give back to people whom have invested so much in me.

What I learnt today: There will be a time for everything. Be patient!

Best feeling ever!!

Thanks to a particular person today who asked me to do physical chemistry today, I'm officially fucking motivated.

I'm back bitches!! Time to study for the period after A levels!! Not gonna give up!!

Can't believe this. Was too fucking nice alr, fucking loss so much self-respect.

神啊。。。

Today.

I really like to 做人. But sometimes its really 累. 为什么我这样呢. 请给我答案.