3 things I'm thankful for today.

1. Meeting rosalind again!
2. Being able to finish my GP essays (Almost)
3. Being so lucky to meet yanzhu loh and liwei at limbang mac to do work together (:

Change will happen over time whether you like it or not. It can be for the better or for worse. But it will all be for the better in the end.

We're gonna die someday you know? Don't live as if you have forever. Most people do. I can't empahsize this point here but what I'm trying to say it acknowledge your mortality. Don't waste time, its ticking, everyone's time is.

Sometimes I look at back at my common test period and I wonder, what went wrong? I've lost trust in myself, grades gone haywire, people start to give me advice that dosen't even deal with the shit I'm in. Basically everything fucked. I'm always willing to start the day off with the right attitude and an optimistic outlook. But sometimes the way life treats me is really like shit. Fuck man, if anyone of you people reading this is thinking,"Well there are others' out there worse than you". Well then FUCK YOU. There isn't shit worse than this okay. Beaten down so badly I could die but too afraid to die and having a fucked up sense of responsibility to do what I'm supposed to.
My problem isn't temporary, its a fucking constant.
I don't know if you have to deal with this but its really tiring.
I'm just really really really tired.
I've nowhere to go and I can't stop, I've got no direction to follow.
Feel like I'm going to explode.

I love listening to music. Its the only time the thoughts will stop. (:

Hope.

Really what I needed today.

These few days I was getting really fearful of myself, scared.

In God of War III, Kratos overcame Zeus with his power which was given by Athena, otherwise known as Hope.

 Zeus was infected with the evil, Fear, and attempted to kill Kratos because he was afraid Kratos would kill him, just like he killed his own father Chronos.

 

Right there, Kratos overcame Fear with Hope.

 

Previously in God of War I, Kratos accidently killed his own family because he was blinded by hatred and desire for war.

He couldn't forgive himself and he was haunted by the guilt and memories every single day for 10 years.

 Nightmares and negative thoughts plagued him endlessly.

But throughout every single day of these 10 years, Hope kept him alive, despite being buried deep down in his soul by the guilt of him killing his own family.

 

But finally, he learnt to forgive himself during a fight with Zeus in God of War III and this helped to liberate the power of Hope inside of him, empowering him to kill Zeus.

 

To quote from pandora,"Hope is what makes us strong. It is why we are here. It is what we fight with when all else is lost".

Have absolute faith in your personality. You were made by god this way and to play this certain role. Until you fully understand this, nothing will fully make sense. Disregard what others say about your flaws, you are perfect in your own way.

Clear conscience.

Whenever we do things, we should do them with a clear conscience, be honest with ourselves. Negative memories won't be unavoidable, but doing things with a clear conscience will help minimise those and create a life of hope.

Do not be afraid when feelings of inadequacy arrive, they are simply ways that your heart uses to tell you,"I want to be better than this".

Responsibility.

You should be responsible for the things that you do.
Take charge of your own life. Most of the time, things that happen around us is a result of our
1.actions,
2.thoughts,
3.feelings
4.and words.
We should learn to take responsibility for all those.
1.Learn to act differently, mature as a result of experience.
2.If you know you are having a bad day because of negative thoughts, change it by thinking positive thoughts, again your responsibility.
3.You having bitter feelings? Give thanks, perform actions that change your emotions.
4.Said something wrong? Why don't you go correct it. Don't give a shit about what people say.
Don't feel like it?
Don't give yourself that shit.
Accept your responsibility.
Take charge of your life.

Wa knn feeling damn shitty right now. Too much pride inside of me alr...

Life (:

So many people learn to live, earning lots and lots of money to get a luxurious life. The correct attitude should be living to learn. Try life lessons from each experience you have , live life to the fullest in spite of circumstances.