Wondering.

How would you run my life sia? I really wanna see.

Just so really tired.

I wish I could just stop hurting people unintentionally... I don't even fucking want to. I'm just expressing myself and I didn't mean to direct anything at anyone. Why can't the world just give me a break... Sigh. They just keep coming, problems and problems... I'd thought it would have finally stopped after As. Perhaps it's just my fault, as always... It's always like this, I can't even pour out to anyone because I don't even understand my shit, that's how complicated it is. I just don't want to do things that make me unhappy, but then it affected others in the process? Perhaps I should just shut my mouth my whole life, then I won't hurt anyone, EVER.

If there's a word that emphasizes fatigue more than EXHAUSTED, hit me.

Sometimes life is just fucking exhausting. Gosh... Haiz, I just really don't know. Just back off alright... You just always say the wrong things...

Confused.

Sometimes I wander what's more important, being good to everyone or being happy deep down inside.

Untitled.

Sometimes when we don't get the love we want, giving makes us think we will.

Feelin it.

I just know that deep down inside, someday, all of this is going to be worth it. The one calling the shots at the courts, it just drives me forward.
All that pain, all that discipline, ignoring all negativities and just pushing through despite all odds, IT'S GOING TO BE WORTH IT.

Lost passion.

I'm at this point where I've lost passion for my sport and I'm so very unsure. I'm not even sure if I like it as much as I thought I did. The feeling sucks so bad... Because you are so unsure.
I just clearly didn't want it as badly as I thought I did.
Please give me strength to pull through this period and emerge stronger.